Hey guys! My name is a secret<3, but you can call me H, and my goal? To be FABULOUS! What does that mean? Beautiful, thin, scholarly, but most importantly? THIN! My ultimate goal? 105 pounds. I know it seems impossible. But I am so close! I can almost taste the THIN!(But I am not going to, haha) My life is crazy right now, with parties and friends and drama... but i wouldn't ask for it any other way, after all it is my life<3 xoxo, H.
Okay lets see... LIKES: losing, chinese food, boys, sour patch watermelon, fashion, and still boys, shopping, shopping SHOPPING!, and being organized. The movie the Breakfast Club, telling jokes, and flirting. Brushing my teeth, and listening to music, long island iced tea, dancing ballet, FEELING THIN<3 , partying, losing my head, feeling loved, dancing the the rain; and so much more<333
DISLIKES:animal abuse, really hot weather, feeling fat eww, arrogance, made for T.V. movies, chocolate ice cream, annoying girls, bare trees in the winter, getting up early, scary movies, when my room is messy, feeling alone, over-priced popcorn at the movies, forgetting amazing nights because of losing my head, awkward after hookup encounters, long school days, feeling scared. and many more, unfortunately!
So now that you know a lot about me, stick around, read some of my weblog! I know you'll love it! Have fun love!
stay strong<3
stay inspired<3
stay skinny<3 xoxo, H.
[115] new school supplies
[112] new makeup
[110] boots (pleather (save the animals))
[108] new shirts (tighter)
[105] new jeans (true religion)
... STAY SKINNY<3. ...
Today I stayed home from school, which normally spells disaster, but for some reason I barely ate anything! Intake: -1 chocolate powerbar (230 calories) -small portion of spaghetti (approx 200 calories) -4 glasses of water (0 calories)
Thats it! 430 calories for the entire day, thats pretty good by my standards. Yesterday was an okay day, about 700 calories but I didn't post because I was just so busy.
This is obviously a quick entry because I have a ridiculous amount of homework, but that doesn't stop me from posting thinspo!
Love you girls so much, your all doing so well! and thank you for all the love and support, it really helps <3 love you allll! xoxo, H.
I lost weight! I'm currently down to 122 and I'm not planning on eating tomorrow. Today was a relatively good day. Not amazing, but not bad. I'm down like 6 pounds from when I started dieting! Intake -1 whole grapefruit with 2 tsp of sugar (130 calories) -1 powdered donut (200 calories) -5 after dinner mints (60 calories) -2/3 of a cheese sandwich (250 calories) -small amount of french bread (75 calories)
Water: [x][x][x][x][ ][ ][ ][ ]
Total Intake: (715 calories)
Outtake: -walked 1 mile (-80 calories) -scrubbed the carpet for 4 hours (-421 calories)
Total Outtake: (-501 calories)
Alright, now that that's over and done with, it's time for some lovely real girl thinspiration! Thinspo always lightens the mood :)
That's all for now my pretties! Love you all so much and glad to see that you are all doing well :) Staystrong, think thin, live skinny! xoxo, H.
P.S. Forgot to make my plan for tomorrow! I want to have 500 calories Intake -1/2 grapefruit with 1 tsp of sugar (65 calories) -3 tbs of trail mix (160 calories) -1 pear (96 calories) -1 apple (90 calories) -1/2 powerbar (115 calories)
That adds up to a little over 500 calories, and thats my plan!
Tonight at 6 begins my two day fast. I will not be eating anything for 48 solid hours, no exceptions. I will have water, tea, and 100% fruit juice, but thats it. Nothing else will pass these lips. It's important that I can do this, it will jumpstart my diet. I can do this. I will do this, I must do this! Countdown: 48 47 46 45 44 43 42 41 40 39 38 37 36 35 34 33 32 31 30 29 28 27 26 25 24 23 22 21 20 19 18 17 16 15 14 13 12 11 10 9 7 6 5 4 3 2 1 DONE I can do this. Please give me strength. THINSPO overload. I need to be totally inspired to pull this off. Alright ladies, thats it for today, I love you all and I hope you can stay strong. Live skinny ladies! <3 xoxo, H.
This has to be a quick post, because I have so many assignments, but today was a good startup day. I stayed less than 1000 calories, so that's fine by me, but tomorrow has to be better. I slept almost the whole day anyway because I took the school day off. I organized my room though, so I felt nice and productive. Tomorrow I need to drink 64 ounces of water, no exceptions! I already have a 32 ounce bottle of water ready, so tomorrow I'm going to try to drink that all by 5th period. Let's say about 8 ounces per class period? I'll just chug it at the beginning of class. Tomorrow I also want to stay under 800 calories. I'm going to be working my way down. My scale picked today of all days to give up on me, so I need to find my other one, and I need to do it fast. Tomorrows going to be a good day, I can feel it! Thinspiration, ladies? Love you ladies so much! I hope you are all doing well! Tomorrow is a brand new day <3 xoxo, H.
I feel so pathetic. So stupid. I've gotten fatter than I have.. well ever. I feel like every other entry I post is me going "I'm so good!" or "I'm awful." It's mostly the latter. 1/2 of my posts are composed of me saying I'm going to start over and be perfect. But perfection is hard, and impossible to achieve. So I'm going to do the best that I can with what I was given. Today I cleaned my room. It's not done yet, but my cleaning lady is coming tomorrow(/today) so hopefully she'll finish it for me. My life has been so busy lately, it's ridiculous, I feel sick from all the pressure that's been put on me. I can't even think about boys right now, I mean I can barely take care of myself, but last week I hooked up with this adorable guy, let's call him J, who I've been friends with since we were kids, and I don't know, I thought maybe I liked him. This weekend rolls around, and he comes to the homecoming game with none other than a huge hickey on his neck, and tries to play it off as if it doesn't exist.... I mean, I have eyes. It's not like we were exclusive or anything, why should I care. I hate guys. But anyway, I'll show him what he's missing when I have a complete hot body. I've been playing field hockey, but I don't feel as toned as I want, and I certainly don't feel skinny. Right now I have to admit I'm at about 125-128. My two scales vary completely, but I trust the spring scale more than the electric one, so I'm going to say 125 is my starting weight. My goal weight is going to be 115, and my ultimate goal weight is going to be 110. I'm standing at about 5'8.5 right now, so I'm definately not short, and I think 110 is perfect for my height. I just want my damned hips to be gone! I have an okay stomach, okay legs, but I can't wear tight shirts because I look like an idiot with my damn hips!!! Once I lose those I'll be so much happier. I want to be thin. I want my collarbones to stick all the way out. I want my legs to look skinny as hell compared to my huge winter jackets. I want my legs to look tiny in my Uggs. I want to be the type that can run a mile without being winded. I want to look skinny, even when I'm running and too tired to suck in my gut. I want to be able to wear sweatshirts and still feel skinny. I want to be beautiful. But then again, dont we all? So girls. I don't want to set limits, I dont want to say I'm going to write every day, because I have a hugely full schedule and don't want to lie to you, but I'm going to try my best, and I hope that all of you girls out there walk away from my entries feeling something; whether it be inspired, pissed, or happy, I don't care, I just want people to feel something again, because a lot of us, including myself, seem to be just going through the motions. Thinspo timeeee <333333 Love you all so much, and its good to be back <33333333 xoxo, H!
